I jus feel tired, tired of everything.

Currently stuck at home, unable to go anywhere.
Seems like a house arrest =(
The reason?
Well, this is a result of what happen 2 days again......

On Thursday:
I am feeling rather lethargic in school, with a really bad sore throat.
Went home 'early' before my last period PE.
Found out that I had a mild fever of 37.8...
Then to the doctor...
After examination, the doctor gave me a 5-DAYS-MC till monday.
I was like O.o and ask for the reason.
He suspected that I caught the H1N1 virus but my condition was mild.
This really freaking scare the hell out of me.
Then I went home all worried and quarantined from my family members.

Today is a special day because I no longer have sore throat! ^^
I guess most probably the doctor overreacted or something...
Yea, life sux when u cannot go anywhere out of ur house.

Perhaps this is a blessing in disguise...
I can spend more time studying myself at home rather than wasting time in school.
Tons of work haiz...

Finally got back all my results: BBCCE
Although it was quite unsatisfactory that I did not obtain an A for any subject,
This was considered good for many who unfortunately hit the jackpot with Us.
I shall aim higher... for H3? Or maybe not.... Still deciding.
Watch your back Mr Park =D

8 more weeks to promos.
Didn't realise that we have so little time to prepare for it.
For those who made full use of 'June holiday', good for u.
And those who wasted your 'June holiday', better start doing something now.
If not, you will be given a free ticket to stay with the school for memorable another year.

This whole weekend, I onli did TJ math n Chem paper.
That leave me with undone tutorial for next week lol.
Ionic equilibrium, summation assignment.....
Well... later ba....

CCA resume next week =(
I wanted more free time to do my own stuffs T-T
Well, guess MOE finally realise that they are being paranoid.
Scrap the 2nd temp taking exercise too pls =D

Work hard everyone~

One week after MYE.
Lessons resumed...
Back to the same old boring times....

Results will be out next week.
Although I noe that I got a B for chemistry and passed my GP paper 1.
Hoping to see good results...

Science research programme offered in our school.
I got dam hell pissed off wif this system.
Is it true that all researchers must have excellent command of its English language?
Must their English be totally flawless?
Niel Bohr had bad english and he still got his freaking Ph.D.
Not onli that, he even got a Nobel Prize.
So why must there be a requirement of distinction for O level EL in order to take the programme?
Discrimination!

New Divide - Linkin Park.
Yea transformer 2 song!
But the lyric have no meaning, at least to me.
That is y I dun really listen to english songs... o well...

I will update soon...

Another few more hours before 'June Holiday' ends.
Also, it marks the start of MYE horror......

First off is math + history, which is tmr.
Then a day off to mug...
Physic on wed and end off on thurs with chem.

Feel that I am still not prepared for Mid years, despite hours of investment into studying.
Especially history, when we did not have a single test on.
I nv felt this way before =(
Wonder what kind of grades will I get...

This whole 'holiday' was quite meaningful to me....
Especially when I can catch up with my work.
Nv really played and enjoy myself that much like before.
University entrance ticket is nv cheap.

Sometimes hardwork didn't pay off.
Like the screw up grades I got for O lvl?
I wonder why I still push myself so hard all this while.
Yea, this is one of my weakness: I cared too much many a time.

Begin MYE with the end in mind:
We should celebrate or something on friday =D

Another week gone...
One last week before "June Holiday" ends.

I should be prepared for mid years after next week...
Still feel quite screwed for history.... To write 3 x 4 pages essays in 2h 15 min =(
I dun think it is possible...
O well.... dun think of it too much.

I had this dream last night that I failed my mid year.
Then I had to see the principal to be advanced.
Yea, I noe that we do not have to see the principal if we fail mid year.
Dreams often have no sense of logic, do they?
This shows that subconsciously I am under emotional stress.
Ya, JC jus screws our lives up.
No wonder my mother said that I kept grinding my teeth last night.
Nightmares~

Plan for today:
-Complete topic 3 and repeatedly read 2 and 3 to memorise for history.
-Sleep in the afternoon? Did not slept much last night.
-SF in the night.

Work hard ppl...

Last day of lecture.
And we are on our own now.

Integration for math.
I remember I once called it the "evil twin of differentiation"
More like angel and demon thing.
It seems easy to get from heaven to hell.
But takes tremendous effort to climb the stairway to heaven.
Hopefully I will conquer this demon soon....
I hate, like what Newton will call it, Fluxion.

So much for "Lets go early to school tmr and study."
In the end, the few of us played bridge.
Jansen should stop bringing cards and distract us.

I forgot to bring Chem equilibrium notes today.
Through chem was jus busy copying the solutions.
Thought Mr Wong will chiong finish the whole thing but I was wrong.
All hard questions should be labelled with double stars + "MJ rox"

Trip to KL is coming.
That will mean I will forsake few days to study....
Hopefully 2 weeks will be enough.

I should stop thinking of other silly stuffs and focus on getting into University.

Embrace JUNE!
Rejoice ppl, for the 'June holiday' are here!
No more going to sch =D

2 days to prepare for GP exam.
Feel so screwed.
This weekend shall be intensive GP revision!
30% of promo at stake...
Pray hard that everything goes well....
After this mid year, i am gonna pay more attention to my GP, I promise.

I seems to have little things to do for revision hmm...
Consider the amount of revision WS I have currently for all my subjects, I can finish them by 1 week if there is no school.
Maybe they will print more n flood us next week hmm..

Yea, my class will lose 4 teachers this June holiday.
Physic, GP, PE, and Geo teachers.
Sad eh? All the best to them ='(

Guitar camp is cancelled.
The school rule stated that all organised activities are to have their proposal sent in at least 2 weeks before the event commence.
So... guess there will onli be one at the end of the year.

The clock is ticking....

Wow, I am blogging on a weekday.
Can't help, today is too eventful =D

Soccer final!
We reached there dam early, 1h 15min b4 the match started.
Having nothing better to do, we play wif our air filled balloon sticks (I forgot wat it is called).
After what it seems like eternity, the match began.

1st half was exciting, with VJ scored within...... 10 min or so?
Correct me if I am wrong.
We caught up but the score levelled up at 2-2 by half time.

Something that that VJ right winger did in the 1st half really pissed us off.
Yea, that no. 5.
As he dribbled the ball past MJ audience crowd, he held his hand up, palm opened, with thumb pointing at his nose.
Yea, that stirred up anger among the crowd.
I heard that he also zham our keeper's face =(

In the 2nd half, if I was not wronged, no. 5 scored the third goal for VJ.
And...... he suddenly had a leg cramp after that goal.
That cramp seemed SO serious and we were VERY concerned about him!

The match ended with 3-2, and we lost.
There goes our champion title and our winning streak.
Kind of depressing but we know that they deserve it.
Ms Lai had a small talk wif no. 5.
Wonder what is it about ^^

Prize presentation.
MJ crowd jeered at the no. 5 when he received his personal trophy for top few scorers.
We should not jeer, even if he had bad sportsmanship =(
But we did clap for VJ when they got their team trophy for first place.

He better not get caught wearing that no. 5 soccer jersey.
Something might happen to him... I dunno...
Better to be safe than sorry, u noe.
DISCLAIMER: I am not anti VJ, jus disapprove of no. 5's attitude.

Enough of soccer.
Both math and chem lectures chionged so fast today.
Yea, lessons are delayed due to sports season.
And my chem test got a 14.5, C.
Kind of expect at least a B for this test.
So I had disappoint myself again this time...
Chemist had bad english - Mr Goh.
I will remember this...

Need to do my thermal physic tutorial now... bye.

"June Holidays" are coming!
Time really past so fast.
I foresee revision worksheets for June.
Not to forget, honourable GPP.

Onli 13% of all who took physic passed the test O.o
Surprisingly I passed this and failed the 1st one, which is so much easier.
I knew that I always sux at measurements.
But pass is NEVER ENOUGH!
Do better next time...

Chem test was easier than what I expected.
Lets see how much I will get.
I screwed the 1st math question, dam similar triangles.
If I made no careless mistake, I should get quite a decent mark.

Went cheering yesterday.
All the way to Jurong and no transport back.
Dam waste of time =(
Stood on MRT from Chinese garden all the way to Simei.
The school is so dam bloody cheapskate.
No wonder Ms Koh and Ms Tan are leaving.
Nah, teachers' pays are independent of the school.

I felt quite down upon hearing the news that both of them are leaving =(
Why must this kinda things happen to us?
This is jus so, so unfair.

Gonna do pw tonight...

Wat should I talk about today?

Physic test!
Surprisingly I passed =D
Although the grade I had gotten was not that fantastic, but I am still happy ^^
Learning point: not to say that I fail until I got back the marked paper.

Pull-up update: 3 pull ups O.o
Godwin taught me a new method of doing pull up on friday.
That is to lock my arms and depend solely on biceps to pull myself up.
Surprisingly it worked!
I am able to do 3 pull ups now with this new method =D
Guess my deltoids are the ones causing me not to be able to do pull ups.
I will train harder...
THX GODWIN!

3 tests on monday.
Jus so great, isn't it?
I MUST GET GOOD GRADES!
Or maybe jus improve slowly...
Now I am having 2nd thoughts about taking H3...
I think this 2 years are gonna be the darkest bits in my life.

I Love Gem <3

Ahh... Mid of term 2 already!

Jus had NAFA and I still can't do a single pull up hmm...
Guess there goes my record in NAFA, never had a nil in NAFA before.
Quite a setback though.
And this also means that I have to train more....
I dun wan to go into army for extra training =(

Physic test tmr =D
I think I screwed my last one up...
It was definitely not hard.
I will not screw this one up again.

Swine flu had resulted in everyone going home later by 15 min.
I bet no one is happy abt it.
So am I.

Feeling rather upset nowadays.
Spend most of my time painting negative pictures abt the future in my head.
Can't complete all my work.
Score badly for tests.
Can't do fast enough for assignments.
These things kept me worried and preoccupied my free time.
So I will rather not have free time.
It is NOT ok for me to do badly jus because the whole J1 did badly.
Like wat Esther Lai said: "Mindset of excellence, nothing less than that."
Wat was the retain rate in MJ last year, anyone noes?
Lets hope I dun breakdown one day.

1st math mentoring.
Zames was quite good at math, except a few careless mistakes here and there...
He was actually better than I thought.
So much for waking up early in de morning at 7+, thx to VJC open house.

Kind of struck the jackpot today.
We found a new location for usual saturday gathering.
The onli thing that lack is..... food.
On top of that I still have guitar lessons at 4 =(
We shall evaluate whether or not to use that place.

Lots of work this weekend, and most of it involve using the com.
Still had not started on my scrapbook...
So screwed.

Labour day holiday next week!
another long weekend that I long for.
But believe that it comes wif a costly price tag; there will be more work to be done.

Yea I passed my 2nd chemistry test!
Realised that Mr Goh short charge me 2 marks after going through the test.
And my name is not on the chem board near GO... not fair....

I used to have no doubt of entering a junior college.
Thought I prepared for it but I was wrong...
Is this the right choice?

Good Friday!
Holiday sure is good, especially when there is a chem test the next week.
I am NOT going to screw up my chem anymore.

Movie marathon was good yesterday/today
Onli managed to sleep for 1h or so yesterday.
Quite fun actually and Ip Man was cool =D

Slept from morning till evening today.
Guess I won't be able to sleep tonight.
O well... I will do work after tonight's dota.

My first A in JC and surprise surprise, it was math O.o
Well I still believe that it was jus a tool.
Work harder! MUST SCORE WELL FOR CHEM TEST!

I need to find ways to make myself happy like before...

Ahh... deep in de night...
When everyone is deep in sleeping, I am here to blog.

Maclaurin!
He got his PH.D when he was 19 O.o
I suspect foul play and pulling string...
Haha, I am jus jealous =P
Quite aspire to be like him (although it is impossible as I can't get my PH.D in 2 years time)
Yea, his 1st impression was good on me until the part when...
I HAVE TO STUDY HIS WORK.
f(x) = f(0) + f''(0)x + [f''(0) / 2!] x^2 + [f"'(0) / 3!] x^3........
Can't he be satisfied by jus leaving it in f(x)?
Why did he bother to obtain as many x terms as possible?
Yea, like wat Godwin says 'He jus created this to screw all our lives up.'
This is wat happen when u are a professor at 19 and have too much time on hand.
He probably got beaten to death or something...

Half the 'holiday' is gone!
So fast?!
Hopefully I can finish all my work on hand b4 term 2 starts.
Some say term 2 is when the 'excitement' really begin.
Felt pretty much stressed out in the 1st term and wonder wat lies ahead of me.
It will be nicer if I put it this way: to push my potential further.
In simpler words - my concept of stress is really nothing, a lot more Pascal can be added on.
School motto should be like: WITH PRESSURE, WE EXCEL!
I really feel like a tiny grain of rice, trapped in a gigantic pressure cooker.
Perhaps I will emerge stronger than before, we shall see.

End of a sch term!
Term 1 ended pretty fast.
And March holidays are coming.
Not much of a holiday actually.
It is jus sch days that u can wake up later.

Yea, I failed my first ever chem test!
9/25, an astonishing U grade.
It doesn't feel so bad when everyone got roughly de same score.
Nevertheless, it is still quite hurting for me =(
Need to adapt to JC style of tests soon, before all my grades start to drop.

List of work for 'March Holidays'
- PBL
- Motion under gravity (EL)
- Tutorials on kinematics
- GP readings
- IVLE Quiz
- History essay
- Gases (EL)
- Redox + stochiometry WS
- Maclaurin series (EL)
- Tutorials on graphing techniques

Looks like a holiday to me? Haha.

Finally find time to blog =D
No tutorial due tmr and weekends approaching.

The most relevent topic to talk abt today is definitely the CHEMISTRY TEST.
Yes, it is the 1st test I have in MJC.
The whole dam paper is so bloody long and we onli have 50 mins to complete it.
In the end, I left a structured qn blank =(
Chem department really feel jolly when they torture us....
I should be able to pass provided that I make no careless mistake.
Never have I feel this way before.
I do wonder wat is the purpose behind setting a paper which is impossible to finish.
Is it true that in A level examination it is impossible to complete the paper? Maybe.
This whole test made me feel like I dun know any abt stoichometry.
I predict physic test next week will be jus as bad.
Now I see why many had choosen the poly path wif single L1R5 score.
And the best part is, PW is not even in it.
Life will be tougher in term 2.
JC life sux. It really does.
I had let down Mrs Teh =(

Term 1 is coming to an end!
It means that I will finally have time to revise and catch up wif my studies.
I think I will be busy between school and my 2nd home in the holidays.
O ya, not to forget dear Maclaurin, pbl and kinematics.
Yea, the main point is that it will be a busy march holiday!

That is all for now.

I should be doing tutorial now....nvm.

Met Kelly today, dun even recognize her anymore.
Maybe I too suffer from the cannot-recognize-faces illnesses that Ms Wu suffers.
She turn out to be in the same class as Jansen and Cheng Boon.
Yea, it's a small world after all.
I was told that Meishan and Jessica are both in MJC as well.
Just last week I met Neville, in the toilet. (I noe, wat a queer place)
Kelly asked me y I lost so much weight since primary school.
This is a mystery that me myself is trying to find out for the past 2 years.

JC life is really......
I can't a suitable word to describe it.
Stressing? Maybe.
The fact is that I dun feel happy in JC.
The feeling is so different.
Perhaps it is the workload.
Tutorial seems endless and sort of make me feel insecured.
Perhaps it is the long lessons hours.
I haven't watch discovery channel and history channel since sch started.
Perhaps it is that I am too used to practising instead of learning (It has been 1/2 yrs since I learn new things)
I will give myself time, time to adapt and find out wat exactly is that something which make me so empty.

Need to finish my tutorial bye.

I am gonna sleep soon so I will make this post a short 1.

Practically spent the weekend doing nothing... except trigo tutorial.
Spent half my sat in my 2nd home and the other at Wydre's house.
"Valentine day, today sure no one de la!"
We were so wrong.
Nevertheless, it feels good to be at home.
I really miss that place veri much.
Clifford told me Chia Chang (who scored 7 too) appealed successfully from arts to sci stream and to 4 H2s in TJ.
Yea, y must he say all these now?
I should look forward and not to be trapped in the past.

Did nothing but to eat, drink and play bridge at Wydre's house.
Felt quite guilty abt letting the birthday girl did all (or most) of the painting job while the rest of us were enjoying ourselves.
But on second thought, I might ruin the banner if I attempt to paint.
I wonder when was the last time I hold a brush.
Amos and his pineapple lol.

Today, as usual, is my guitar class.
3 more weeks to exam, time really flies.
Need to practise more on the coming weeks.

Went national museum after that.
Not exactly the most interesting thing on Earth.
Few hundreds years of history of Singapore do not have much to tell.

Off to sleep, bye.

Jus made a facebook account, add me thx!

The end of a new beginning.